When you forward and see a block
Do you continue the path or halt to a stop

You walk on and hit the wall
The bang so loud forces a fall

Blood stream from the top
Flowing rapidly down the corpse

Ascending towards the heaven
As though you were forgiven

What do you know?
Everything froze

An obstacle met
Your happy ending not just yet

Pull and drag from the below
Take your tools and cast a stone

It spells your name
LIfe's no longer cookies and cream

Filled with burns and tears
This is hell you're at

There's no looking back now but if you do
Maybe you should just stop, cos life's cruel...

My heart is raining tears
But still you didn't know of the pain
You were there right beside me
Yet you managed to stay out of the rain

The wheel on my hand became soft
I can heard my heart breaking
You never knew how much I love you
I'm driving into an meaningless ending

The presence you have beside me
Slowly fades off as you leave
As the door shuts and so has my heart
Gone together with you on another journey

What I thought was real become a dream
Written on a piece of paper
The story of our love or is it just mine
It doesn't matter as it flew off in tears

I'll walk with you till the end
The one last time I would sent you home
But please don't turn around to look at me
I've lost myself in this break up tone

Goodbye to the hand that warm mine
I won't get to kiss you again
I wish you would love me back
But I guess, I'll have to endure this lonesome taint

Chapter 5 : Just my luck

God will not take away something from you without return something else in favour. But the saying goes for that God has given you something, and he will expect something in return.

While I was finally having some fun, times flies and I have to surrender the temporary happiness. The rest of the day was all about wondering "what could have been" as I see Irys and her boyfriend cuddling while organizing the activities. Why must they be so close to get things done? Can't they just keep away from one another and give me peace to my mind?

Seriously, at this point, I wasn't really in the mood to continue my stay for the camp. And an uglier truth is that we are still on the first day on this sucky place. Like Remy Zero will sing for Superman, "somebody save…me…"

The same for the previous day goes for the next day. I dragged my feet around, from one activity to another. I pinned a fake smile when someone comes over and say hi. And that's basically a form of repellent for everyone. I was practically left alone. This time, there was no more Irys to accompany.

Luck ran out on me. It all ran away until some came back in a form of a quarrel between Irys and her partner. Evil laugh. 

CHAPTER 4 : THREE IS A CROWD

Seeing someone you love happy isn't at all any happier for yourself.

The freshmen camp sucks. And I'm not embarrassed to describe the camp in a word and leave this paragraph for the next line.

Apparently I thought I can just waste my time on the meaningless and endless ice breaker games the camp had organized and not focus myself on the prized procession, Irys. OK, focus focus, opps, there goes my eyes on her again. But often and not, the beautiful sight would evanesce when I row my eyes over to her left. Imagine this, Jessica Alba standing there. You are in love with her. She is so gorgeous just standing there. Then suddenly there's a Orlando Bloom beside her. Kind of making a mess out of Jessica won't you think? Anyway, it kind of did to me.

Day one was a little slow. Everyone was not exactly a New Face candidate but at least everyone is new to one another. Already in a sunken mood, I could not bother peaking up my mood. I was in a world of my own, playing my own game until the game entitled "2-gether". Everyone was to pair up and while I was trying to figure out the rules to it, I became the only one without a partner. Nice…

I saw everyone in pairs, all except me. I felt a little uneasy then again, a little pissed off. But in come the only highlight of the camp, Irys. I'll be your partner. God replied to my prayers. Together, we cleared the obstacles in the game. There was this one time that I have to carry her over a hurdle, seriously, I think I heard the wedding bells. All is worth for the fee I pay for the camp. Thank you my lord.

CHAPTER 3 : DECISION ON A SPOT

"Who's the pretty girl over there beside your mum?"

I looked around the flower shop from the counter where I'm standing and even made the effort to move a little to look over the blind spots behind some huge sunflowers but I could not located the person whom Dong was referring to. Well, if you knew Dong as much as I do, you will practically know that by pretty girl, we're looking at people like Angelina Jolie, Drew Barrymore, Kate Hudson. People of a certain age yet of a certain class. But honestly speaking, I am not able to see anyone near that region of sexual appeal.

"The one with the short hair in white."

Now fellows, if there's one thing you must know about me is that I'm blind, blinded from the world where girls are having their hair so short that I thought I'd seen another gender.

"Oh… That's Auddy. She's here for ar…"

Come to think of it, Auddy has been visiting the flower shop ever since I started helping out my mum. We had been classmates since elementary school but after graduating college, Auddy decided to stop any further studies. Not quite sure what she was up to but now you can find her here at the flower shop practically everyday.

I looked over to Dong who had his eyes on Auddy for the past few minutes and for a moment, I was enlightened by that idiot. By idiot, I meant it in a positive manner. After all those days of wondering whether to go for the Orientation Camp and face lovely dovey Irys and her partner, I've decided to go. What the hell. It has already been paid for and at least I still get to see her, rather than shelling myself here and visualizing her in my mind.

"Yes, I'll go!"

Unintentionally, while punching into the air, I think I had the entire attention in the shop to myself. Dong gave me the look and nodded. I'm not quite sure what he meant and at least I'm sure of what I meant. I'll be there. Watch out, Irys, I'm coming...

CHAPTER 2 : THE FRESHMEN CAMP

Love is never a smooth journey. But anyway, who said it was going to be one in the first place?

The sudden love at first sight on Irys dug a hole in my pocket. The freshmen orientation chalet wasn't as cheap as I thought it would be. Initially I felt it was worth it, every cent of it, every effort to sign up for it, every anticipation to be in it. It was worth it. I was loving every moment as it draws closer to the date until I saw Irys again. The sight of Irys is a delight. It's the dung beside the flower that stink up the picture. Who's the guy holding your hand, Irys?

"I would say it's her boyfriend."

I refused to accept the reasoning that Auddy gave. But she does make a point. Pretty girl, cute gestures, lovely voice, friendly.. Hello? Any guy will have to be blind to miss out on someone of such caliber. A week more until the camp date and I think I had just ran out of adrenaline to enjoy the festive occasion.

"I think I should give the camp a miss."

Auddy was about to give me the staredown but I decided to give my attention to the sudden rush of crowd in the shop. For a moment, I found comfort in helping my mum's customers in search of the prefect flower for their perfect someone.

I found the perfect flower. But the flower is not suitable for me.

CHAPTER 1 : FLOWERY LOVE

Some said that it was love at first sight. I thought so too.

Her name was Irys. Spell differently but pronounce and describe as of the flower. I don't know much about the flower but through her, I believe that it symbolises gentleness in a beauty. I knew it was going to be a long dreadful first day in school but her voice seems to brighten the room. 

"Morning everyone and welcome to your new home. "

The sweet voice, the cutie pie look. Oh my gosh, I'm feeling right at home immediately. Those introduction talks and speeches weren't really beneficial as I steal time to look at Irys. She was pacing around, trying to organise something for us, freshmens.

Geez, why is orientation day always a pack of boring programmes. But I think that's the motive of it 'cos it can get so dull that strangers start to strike a match together and make a bon fire. I wasn't really involved in any of the ice breaking games. Maybe I'm just not used to meeting new people, starting a conversation etc.

"We'll be having a Freshmen Orientation Camp starting next week. So I hope you guys can join us. It's gonna be lotsa fun..."

I'm not really into orientation day so let alone a camp for it.

"I'll be there so if you encounter any problem, you ...."

I must say that I have selective listening. Did I just heard Irys reporting her attendance for the camp. Where's the registration booth? 

I heard this song before many times
From the voice of land divine

Full of sorrow and living lies
Cries made up all the lines

The burden of the white wings
Solemnly an angel sings

She was cursed
Never able to be with her love

Soaring continuously in the sky
Who knows of the tears that can't dry

There is nothing we can do
Just listen to the song of cruel

He was mortal and she was an angel
A forbidden love shared that brought tears

She tried to tear her wings
So as to be with him

But the mortal died
And she ran out of grief

Now what we all see
Of an angel with broken wings

Singing a sad melody
Here alone without anything

Agonizingly surviving every breath I take

Betraying my thoughts with a smile I fake

Thinking of you bring pains to my heart

A dagger through my love you had cut

Diverging my thoughts to other useless stuffs

Only started, I have already find it too tough

The more I try to forget everything of you

The more I indulged into your spirit I feel

Too deeply in love to leave without hurt

There is only heartache I will be serve

You will always be someone else dear

So it’s time to say goodbye now not later

Continue to breathe and endure the pain

I will try to enjoy my unworthy life in vain…

I can visualize you by my side even as I shut my eyes

For you are here to stay in my heart, always on my mind

I could tell you how I much I love you but I wouldn't

As I believe actions speak louder than words is it not

Hence I shower you with whatever little possession I have

Giving in my best to let your heart knows that I love and care

But no matter how hard I try, I keep in mind of this

That you are not ready to believe and willing accept me

You were once betrayed by a love you deem forever and true

And the pain has hurt you then and been haunting you still

You no longer trust and put faith on others love in any case

For you feel that bitterness will eventually be what you taste

Unable to differentiate between true love and a crush or lust

You gave yourself time to heal as a remedy to your broken heart

But you were sweet enough to let me know that of your choice

And reminding me that there are no promises you had voiced

I respect your decision to rest your heart and hold you to no vow

As I believe that you will then be able to recover here and now

You once mentioned that you might miss out on a true love

Forgoing someone that really cares and can entrust on any matter

I don't know if you are referring to me with that speech

But if it's me, I need your heart to listen to my heart speak

I will continue to love and to put a smile on your pretty face

Trying my very best to regain a little of your trust and faith

Little by little, I hope to ease your sorrow and rebuild hope

Hoping to feel the everlasting love in me that only you can hold

I will continue to wait right here, now and maybe forever

No string attached, patiently waiting for my one true love

You may not believe me for what I'm doing now, this I'm sure

But I have waited for you much longer which is more absurd

Even when the day comes that you prefer another but me

I will not hold you to any grudges as for that I had promised

A promise I made will be of forever until I have fulfilled it

For that I will love you for who you are and who you become

As that is also a promise I have made to myself